Well.
Alexis got the package, now i can let go. She has done enough. She has changed in too many ways and i have lost interest. She has met a great guy and i am happy for them, i am. So tumblr, wait till she reads this. Maybe she’ll realize that we wern’t “ment to be”.
But hey, maybe in 20years ill see her walkin down the street in my tie.
Fuck.
Well. Im stuck.
Alexis, the one of my dreams.
Or,
Justice, the one in my eye’s.
This is too much tumblr, you know i’ve been wanting her forever now, but how long is forever going to be, you know? I’m starting to notice that me and Justice are having some of the same conversation’s me and Alexis had before. Hell, she had a nightmare and texted me about 20 minutes ago. Ugh. I still want Alexis so bad though, but how would i drop Justice? I can’t simply have both, and i can’t drop one for the other, i refuse. Jeez. I fucking love them both so much. Alexis is the more, understanding one though. I feel like she listen’s more even when a bad mood, she’s so much more ideal as well. It’s amazing. Justice on the other hand is easier to joke with, to get over all get along with. I find that Alexis has, per say. Grown old. She has become much less interesting, and i feel as though she is hiding something. I’m not so sure what. I also find that Justice on a bad day can really make me feel like shit, she can be very hurtful. Honestly, she can say the meanest things, but Alexis isn’t innocent of this either.
Con’s-
Justice- Lack of Trust.
Alexis- Lack of Self.
Anyway Tumblr, im going to go to sleep now. I’ll talk to you some other time.
Signed - Brandon.
this is it
someone help me out
all we ever did was scream and shout
but when i look in her eyes
it gets rid of all those hurtful lies
she has to go
i cant take it anymore
my self esteem is on a low
we arnt walking on the sunset shore
this, is about her…the one ive always talked about on this blog, and my old one…
i love this girl okay? there you go..i love her so much .-. can someone please help me? im standing over the edge screaming her name, trying to push myself off and just get rid of all the pain that has been inflicted. But all this pain comes with memories you see? memories of love..and great things that we have been through… i cant do this alone..should i even do it? or should i stick it out? please help me…
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You know Tumblr, i haven’t actually used you to get famous or whatever. Not for people to read this. Only really used you as a way to communicate with someone indirectly. Once my goodbyes are done i will no longer need you.
That is all.
It’s Amazing.
How everything can just go to shit so quickly, isnt it tumblr? Atleast i have you too share my feelings, no one else looks at this but me.. Your like a journal. Anyway, i don’t want to go to school anymore but i have too, too many classes to skip on.. She.. She just doesn’t think before she speaks.. She can say the most hurtful things, you know? Like. I just sometimes wish she would break up with me, tear out my heart completely instead of slowly picking at it.. I planned on killing myself today. I’m not sure i will, but im still thinking about it.
Talk to you later tumblr.
Signed Brandon~
